A Question for my Readers Regarding House Spirits

I have a question for my readers if anyone would like to share their thoughts. I’m assuming that most of my readers are some form of Pagan, Polytheist, witch, etc. Regardless, most of these traditions are animistic. I know that many of the Pagan bloggers I follow live this worldview, approaching the world as filled with many and varied spirits.

So when you know that everything is enspirited, and you have a relationship with the spirit of your house (not simply a household spirit like the Lares or Penates) or with a piece of land, How do you let go when you are forced to move? Do you say goodbye to your old house, or have a ritual to thank and honor it for sheltering and protecting you? It’s not likely that the new residents will do the same, after all (although with Marie Kondo stubly sneaking animism into middle-class American culture, who knows). How do you build a relationship with the next house, knowing that you’ll only be there for a year or two as well, and that eventually you’ll have to abandon that one?
This is one of the things about our culture I hate most: the impermanence. I long for rootedness and permanence and to have a lasting, decades-long relationship with the same plot of land, no matter how small. It hurts me to develop a relationship with the spirits around me and then be forced to leave them. I still remember a particular treespirit I talked to when I was a teenager and how much I missed her presence when my family moved. The lack of a rootedness and a family home is something that a lot of people in this culture, or at least my lower-class bracket of it, suffer from, and I think we are worse off spiritually for it. It does contribute to a sense of drifting and disconnection from the community around us (both flesh-and-blood and spirit community) and it contributes to a sense of isolation and even a lack of spiritual discernment – I cut myself off from connecting to plant spirits for YEARS because it hurt so much when my family moved and I lost my tree friend. Yes, I was a lonely teenager. You can call me crazy if you want, but if more people thought of trees as friends, maybe we would not have wrecked the planet like we have.

I’m sitting in the parking lot in my car (named VAN-nessa, by the way, because yes she is alive and our cars are our modern steeds), and I’m about to go into my “mundane” job, so I probably will not respond to any comments until lunchtime. But this is something that has been weighing on my mind as fall approaches, since I will have to be moving in all likelihood.

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Abortion and Heathen Morality

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Tyr is the god of the law, the god of honour, the god of peace and justice.  All of these things come from his ordeal, his choice, and his path; accepting the cost.  Tyr offered his sword arm and thus his status as champion and warrior as security to Fenris Wolf so he would accept the binding that proved to hold the ever-hungry one, and stop his devouring all that lived.  He accepted the loss of his hand because when it came down to it, he taught us that honour requires us to accept the cost of our choices, the price of our bargains and decisions or we can have neither worth nor honour.

This brings us to one of the most divisive issues of the day, abortion.

There are Heathens on both sides of the issue.  In my own community the split is very heavy on the side of…

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You can pry the runes from my cold, dead fingers

Sweden is considering banning their own damn culture. I can’t facepalm hard enough. This is just …. there are no words to express my rage. I am actually so upset, and simultaneously so TIRED, that I couldn’t write my own report about it. So I’m just going to borrow Galina’s, and echo her words. You can’t have my runes. You can’t have my heritage. You can take them from my cold, dead hands.

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So…Sweden is considering a ban on the runes and other Heathen symbols. Wildhunt to date doesn’t seem to have covered this– no surprise there. What Heathen groups I have seen touching on it have been excusing it. I haven’t seen medievalists up in arms about it either. Are you people out of your fucking minds? 

What is next? Banning Heathenry? That is the logical conclusion to a globalist program that considers any expression of indigenous religious culture a hate crime. 

The reasons this is being considered are, of course, supposedly to prevent white supremacist groups from using these symbols. I don’t, however, see any proposed ban of the cross or the crescent. In the end, it doesn’t matter WHY this is being considered. If you give an inch to a tyrant, they will take a mile. We should be up in arms about this. In fact, every devout community, Pagan…

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CFS – Anthology of Polytheistic Monasticism

Passing this on because I hope it gets a lot of submissions. Its definitely not my own path, but I’d love to hear from Pagan monastics, and I know that they exist.

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Polytheists who identify as monastics are invited to submit personal essays about their experience and practices to be included in an as-yet untitled anthology intended to heighten awareness of this form of Pagan spirituality. The editor is Janet Munin, editor of Queen of the Great Below: An Anthology in Honor of Ereshkigal. Danica Swanson of Black Stone Hermitage is serving as a consultant.

We are looking for vivid personal accounts and thoughtful reflections, not research papers.

Possible topics include:

  • How a person came to and/or currently lives out a monastic vocation
  • The joys and challenges of monasticism
  • Monastic theology
  • Your Rule of Life or other monastic disciplines you’ve adopted and what their impact has been
  • Interviews with polytheistic monastics
  • How monasticism differs from or overlaps with other spiritual identities or practices
  • Living in community vs living as a hermit
  • Balancing a monastic lifestyle with the need to earn a living…

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Thoughts on Energy, Empathy, Shamanism, and my future in the Pagan Community

I’m just finished reading Sophie Reicher’s “Spiritual Protection: A Safety Manual for Energy Workers, Healers, and Psychics“. When I wasn’t working I had the luxury of just ignoring my empathic gifts and simply centering, saging and saying a quick prayer before going into public. Now I have repeatedly been put into situations that have basically made me energetically-sick afterwards. A few weeks ago after my shift was over I held a crying, near-suicidal co-worker for 20 minutes …. It was an emergency situation and I had no choice but to let my shields down in order to give her energy and I know that I took some of her pain. She seemed a little happier, or a least better, when I left, but I definitely suffered for it. When I got home I felt heavy and tired when I hadn’t been at the end of shift, in fact I had been quite upbeat. I slept for 2 hours. I should have showered to cleanse her depression off of me, but I simply didn’t have the energy, I only saged and took a nap. I don’t want to be a shaman or a healer but I don’t seem to have been given a choice. Being in the world again has meant that I am in situations where I am constantly being bombarded by other people’s emotions and it’s exhausting.

Reading the book has also made me realize that I’m not as good at “basic” stuff like grounding as I thought. I am also working my way through “Neolithic Shamanism: Spirit Work in the Northern Tradition” by Galina Krasskova and Raven Kaldera. I actually started this book early last year, but I got spooked and stopped. There’s no way for this work to not change you, and I don’t want the responsibility that comes with my gifts. I wasn’t ready then. I’m not sure I’m ready now. But I didn’t have a job then, and I wasn’t driving. Getting a job has forced me to develop my gift a least a little, at least enough to properly protect myself.

I feel strongly that my purpose is to teach, and I’m comfortable sharing my knowledge through my writing and in similar ways. But I also have this draw to other more mystical ways to serve the Gods and to seek knowledge, and I keep having these thoughts, and then censoring myself, saying things like “No, that’s arrogant. You can’t possibly be a shaman, you know what comes of hubris. Don’t self-aggrandize like that. Be humble.”

I don’t know if it’s because I think I CAN’T, or if it’s just that the weight of the responsibility to so many Gods and spirits scares the shit out of me.

I’m still working on the Earth chapter exercises in Neolithic Shamanism. I’ve read ahead a little into the Sun chapter, but I don’t feel like I’ve mastered grounding enough to move on. I’ve been visualizing mountains as my shields, and I switched from hematite to smoky quartz for my grounding, and so far that has had far better results, less panic attacks at work and such. But more practice and experimentation is needed.

I’m going slowly. I don’t know right now if I will finish the entire book. I know I need to ground in this world like crazy to figure a lot of things out and I guess we will go from there. I also know that I do not take good enough care of my body, and that is something that is absolutely essential for any kind of diviner, engeryworker, or what have you. It’s part of the reason that I am temporarily stalled on the Earth chapter. I’m working on that. I have a regular prayer practice but not a regular exercise practice. I haven’t even been eating regularly. I haven’t had the motivation the last few months, I don’t know why. But disrespecting our bodies is disrespecting our souls, I need to work on that more. I’m trying.

I don’t know if this is relevant to the topic at hand, but I have noticed that I seem to have almost an “awakening” or “Paganizing” effect on people around me that consider themselves nonspiritual or even atheist. My Dungeon Master (from my DnD tabletop game group, you pervs) doesn’t consider herself Pagan, but has constructed an altar to Freyja and Bast and tells me she is exploring her spirituality directly because of my influence and my passion for my religion.

My boyfriend considers himself nonspiritual but open. I sense a yearning in him, a hunger, and it’s almost like he wants to believe but his logical Westernized mind won’t let him. He asks questions and is nothing but respectful, even when it’s something completely forgein to him. The longer we are together, the more “Paganish” he becomes. He took a test to see which of his chakras were the most active, and he was surprised how accurate it was, even commenting that several co-workers had said the exact same thing that the test result did. ( it was Stargirl the Practical Witch’s Chakra personality test on YouTube). He’s even started carrying crystals. Although I’m sure he’d laugh it off as a favor to me or something.

He recently asked me to read his runes, but I told him I’m not sure if that’s a good idea. The messages that come through can be harsh and I’m not sure if he wants that message to come through me. If he asks again, then maybe he’s actually serious. I’m going to wait and see.

Even at work, where no one knows I’m Pagan, but I have self described myself as a “big hippie weirdo”, I attract people asking me questions about crystals and essential oils. I end up supporting people who are in crisis in their lives. Without any of the traditional terms, I end up guiding people in their spiritual lives. I’m glad to stand as something of an example (I hope) of someone at least trying to live in Right Relationship with the God’s, spirits, and the land. But I don’t know how much I want to serve the Pagan community vs the Gods and spirits. I’ve had many experiences where the Pagan community ended up being ungrateful and self-centered, and I burnt myself out trying to run a public Temple that was donation-only. Newsflash: rituals, classes, divination, and energy work are ALL WORK, hard work, and all cost money and all deserve compensation.

I don’t know. I’m at a weird place right now in figuring out my future.

Btw, if you are local, I will be reading runes on Sunday June 2nd from 1-5pm at Mystic Beads and EarthWear in Niles, Michigan. You are welcome to drop by and see what the runes might have to say about your wyrd.

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Reveiw of Girls Underground Oracle Deck

I’ve been meaning to do this review for a while and simply haven’t gotten to it.

Kate Winter has created an Oracle deck based on an archetype she identified decades ago which she calls the Girls Underground. In her own words: “ [these themes] are often from novels and films, but the idea is so old it can be found in ancient mythology, and later in popular fairy tales. They involve initiatory journeys – often literally underground – in which a girl or woman explores a perilous Otherworld with several companions, confronts an Adversary, and learns the lessons necessary to reach her goal, ending up transformed.
The original inspiration for the idea was the classic 80’s fantasy movie Labyrinth (and to a lesser degree, Alice in Wonderland) and fans will recognize many of the elements of Sarah’s journey in these cards.” (from the Etsy shop, here)

The earliest mythological version of the Girl Underground archetype could be considered to be Persephone, but with Lewis Carrol’s Alice in Wonderland a whole new type of story came into being. As a teenager I was obsessed with Jim Henson’s Labyrinth. I’ve watched Sarah defeat David Bowie’s Goblin King more times than I care to count. Mirrormask, written by Neil Gaiman and produced by Dave McKenna and the Jim Hensen Company, was another Girl Underground movie that played at my house practically on repeat.

Kate Winter has been researching this archetype for years, and I have ardently followed her other works and writings. So when she announced last year on Kickstarter her intention to make a divination deck based on her experiences with the archetype, I was happy to contribute. I am proud to have been part of bringing this Oracle into the world, even if only by a small part.

If you’re wondering how it works as divination tool, it’s excellent. I received it around the winter solstice, and I have already used it so much I have begun to wear out the book. But that may also be because I spilled red Gatorade on it at one point …. Oh well, let’s pretend it’s blood, it fits the Otherworld theme much more.

I’ve found the advice to be practical and applicable to both real-world situations and my spiritual Journey. This is an incredible tool and, to my knowledge, completely unique. I think that it would be useful for anyone, but if, like me, you’ve ever identified with Sarah in the Labyrinth, Alice in Wonderland, or any of the other numerous Girls Underground, then it will probably be especially so for you.

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Picture: This deck uses storytelling and plot points instead of art and imagery, so its a bit unusual, but that’s one of the things that makes it so interesting. As a writer I appreciate the power of the naked word and just the storyline itself. It works extremely well, more than you might imagine.

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Heathen Author and Priest doxxed by Antifa group

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I was planning to write about the Ostara ritual I attended on Saturday, and a review of the amazing Pagan and witch shop it was held at. Sadly, their thunder has been stolen by something that happened to a dear friend of mine yesterday. The article I had intended to spend today writing will still be coming, hopefully in the next couple of days. But unfortunately, as the picture says, my ancestors, Gods, and spirits will not allow me to be quiet in this matter. Not to mention common human decency, even above my friendship with the person in question.

Galina Krasskova has been doxxed on Twitter.

Her work address and home phone number has been made public. Worse, at the time of this article’s writing, Twitter is refusing to take it down because it “doesn’t qualify” as abusive speech under their rules, even though it meets all their points. I suspect that the real problem is that the doxxer is an Antifa liberal and Galina is politically conservative and famously pro-free speech, anti-censorship, anti-Marxist, and anti-communist. Which is somehow a bad thing, in today’s political climate.

Folks, this is a terrifying precedent. It’s been said before, but this is clearly McCarthy-era Red Scare tactics updated for the modern age. How many of our grandparents dreaded hearing this question: “Are you now or have you ever been a member of the communist party?” Only the pendulum has (perhaps inevitably) swung the other way. Those of us in the Pagan community who are too young to remember the horrors of the McCarthy era should stop talking for a few moments, pretend we actually value the input of our elders (because a great number of us clearly don’t), and listen. Maybe pick up a history book or two. It didn’t turn out so well the first time, did it?

Whatever your politics, whatever your opinion of Galina, doxxing someone is clearly wrong. I wouldn’t doxx the TridentAntifa people, although a small, dark part of me thinks that maybe they’d think twice about doing it to someone if it happened to them.

Probably not though. They’d see it as more proof of oppression in their righteous struggle against “The Man” or something. In Jungian terms, I think they have failed to integrate their shadow and to realize their own capacity for evil. This lack of shadow work leads to their rage and anger coming out in dangerous ways that are damaging to other people and themselves. I can acknowledge that a part of myself wants to do the same to them and NOT act on that impulse, because it’s wrong and evil and hurtful. But I digress.

For those of you who don’t know, although if you are reading my blog I suspect you will, Antifa is a title for a loose collection of grassroots anarchist anti-fascist groups that have been officially labeled domestic terrorists by the FBI and Dept of Homeland Security. Here is an article saying just that. Everything they do is anonymous, they cover their faces during their riots so they have no accountability, yet in their “unmasking” of people they deem to be racist they are revealing personal information and encouraging violence. This is not only cowardly in the worst sense, it is terrorism, plain and simple, and needs to be called out for what it is.

In a civilized society, we can have discourse that upsets us, have conversations that make us uncomfortable, and we can have friends we disagree with! I’d call all those things *necessary* to personal growth.

So, I spent some time reading the thread in question this morning, which was at points rage-inducing, absurd to the point of hilarity, and ridiculously sad. It was so upsetting I frequently had to take breaks. Throughout the entirety of the thread, Galina’s words were purposely taken out of context, to the point where I wondered about the author’s reading comprehension skills. Throughout she is accused of supporting violence (but Marxists and Antifa equate free speech with violence, that’s all this means) yet say things like, “she really doesn’t like it when Nazis get punched in the face” – uh yeah that’s called not creating a culture of violence, which is something you JUST ACCUSED HER OF TWO SECONDS AGO. If you have to resort to violence to win an argument, you just lost the argument. No matter how righteous your position. Not to mention Antifa calls anyone who disagrees with them a Nazi these days.

Particularly upsetting, not to mention factually wrong, was when they said that she doesn’t care about poor people and doesn’t want them to be able to pursue higher education. Yet since 2010 Galina has funded a scholarship for improverished women WITH HER OWN MONEY. I think that shows that she does care, in fact they are assuming that they know everything about her from her current financial state and that she has never struggled, which is not true. Antifa (and Marxists in general) are so quick to spend other people’s money, to prove they “care”. I wonder how often they donate their own earnings to charity, or if they become miserly when dollar signs suddenly enter their own bank account. Perhaps they think the government needs to force people to share their wealth because Galina’s inherent generosity is antithetical to their natures and they assume everyone is as selfish as they are. This is an example, I think, of our culture’s deeply, deeply unhealthy ideas about money, but that is an entire different tangent.

You might assume from these statements that I am politically conservative. I am not. I am left-leaning, a “classical liberal” if you will, although I am staunchly pro-free speech and pro-2nd Amendment, which I suppose for the modern Pagan community makes me “alt right-adjacent” or some other nonsense. (Now watch that sentence get taken out of context!!!!) Not that I should have to prove that I am “liberal enough” to defend Galina, or anyone’s, right to privacy. For the love of everything that is holy, when did it become normal for private information like addresses and phone numbers to be published as the price for having a unpopular opinion, political or otherwise? We either believe in freedom, or we don’t. It is that simple.

Not content to attack just Galina, they go after her friends as well. Another Pagan whose work I closely follow, Kenaz Filan, was similarly smeared and called a white supremacist, and all manner of vile and hateful screeds was attributed to him, taken, as usual, out of context or flatly made up. Although he has been accused of it before, Kenaz is the FURTHEST thing from a white supremacist. He is actually initiated into Haitian Vodou and has authored several books on the African Dispora and the worship of the Orishas. (I hear the cries of cultural appropriation already).

Why the race-baiting, then? He simply refuses to be ashamed of being white. He acknowledges that no race is better or worse than another, but each has it’s own beautiful culture and tradition.Those cultures and traditions are worth preserving. Ancestors are worth venerating. OF ALL PEOPLES, ALL RACES, AND ALL TRIBES. That is somehow controversial these days. Because venerating your white ancestors is “problematic”, you are supposed to be ashamed of them. Karl Seigfried, writing at the Wild Hunt (the same author who caused a massive backlash among Heathens when he compared Trump to Loki) recently suggested we deal with white supremacy (and there ARE racists stealing our symbols, and we DO need to deal with them) by gutting our traditions. One of his vile suggestions was not honoring ancestors anymore. What the ever-loving FUCK? Ancestor veneration is at the heart of ALL paganisms and polytheisms, including African religions if you’re really going to be so low as to drag race into this. I don’t know how someone can be Pagan and abhor their ancestors so much. It just doesn’t compute. Why are you even here? Muslims aren’t asked to throw away the hijab or the Qu’ran wholesale because of violent Jihadists (and they shouldn’t be), so why are we expected to “adapt” our traditions to “modern values”? Modern values like consumerism, secularism, politics before everything, SJWs, and whatever it is that causes the 24/7 news cycle are the problem. Or at least part of it. We are trying to reconstruct old religions that were/are more in touch with nature and the Gods, and we can’t do that by throwing out everything that makes us different from modern Western secularism.

Lastly, bringing another of Galina’s friends into this, they attacked Pagan author Raven Kaldera as transphobic, which I find beyond hilarious because Raven IS a ftm transgendered and intersex person (he was born with an intersex condition, raised female, and eventually transitioned to male). They seemed particularly offended by Raven’s use of the term “Third Gender Issues”, but hey, let’s censor the very language and expression of the people YOU CLAIM TO WANT TO PROTECT. Guess you only wanna help out the trans people that toe your party line. They also fail to point out that he is talking about himself and only himself, and that many of the statements they reference in their condemnation he had made 20 years ago, before the current accepted PC language changed and evolved. Guess it’s his fault for not having a time machine. The lunacy is simply stunning. This is somebody who is everything you guys should *like*, since you’re all about identity politics and only identity politics. But he’s friends with someone you hate (for some reason), he believes in freedom, and worst of all, he’s white too …. Gotta throw the trans baby out with the white bathwater, I guess. I really do not know what goes through these people’s minds sometimes.

You might not believe this, but I am *TIRED* of doing political posts. I don’t *WANT* to be political, I don’t want to cause conflict or division. I want to focus more on theology. Good Gods, I want to focus on worshipping my Gods and building our communities. But this is wrong. It turns my stomach, it’s just disgusting. And sometimes you just have to call a spade a spade. Or a terrorist a terrorist.

One day they might come for me, but I’m not going to be silent up until the point that they do. This Heathen bitch will go kicking and screaming.

Odin help me. I can’t believe that with my anxiety issues I am putting this out there. But fuck it.

Come and get me.

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