Tag: life

The Choice

I actually wrote this about 6 months ago. I knew what my choice was. It just took me too long to make the right one. Must there always be a choice  Between sacred things and the safety and security this world offers? I know I’m being called to make a sacrifice, but I fear what…

I’m single again

So, I’m single again. It sucks. I still love my ex, but we weren’t well matched. Many of our values did not match up. He is a good person, but I don’t believe we could build a life together. I made the hard choice. Perhaps one day we could even be friends, but not right…

Projects Update

It’s been an insane year, hasn’t it? I’ve been using the time to get ahead on some projects that needed doing, but I do have to admit that with my mental health, it is sometimes a battle. A lot of basic mental health and self care routines I had before Covid are tied to going…

Thoughts on Energy, Empathy, Shamanism, and my future in the Pagan Community

I’m just finished reading Sophie Reicher’s “Spiritual Protection: A Safety Manual for Energy Workers, Healers, and Psychics“. When I wasn’t working I had the luxury of just ignoring my empathic gifts and simply centering, saging and saying a quick prayer before going into public. Now I have repeatedly been put into situations that have basically…

Odin and Anxiety

I have been thinking about why someone like me would worship Odin. Or more rather, why a God like Odin would be interested in worship from someone like me. I suffer from a rather severe anxiety disorder. Sometimes it’s mostly under control and I can function close to normally. Sometimes … not so much. This…

Mentally Ill Online Pagan

Originally posted on The Slavic Polytheist:
Being a mentally ill “pagan” is all sorts of fun. (high levels of sarcasm here) Mostly because of all the people out there the broader community who all seem obsessed with how everything has to be “naturally” done, or go back to nature, etc. etc. ad nauseum, blah blah…

Memorial Day Thoughts

So, I’m late in posting this (as per usual). But I didn’t want to let that stop me. As I said before, I’ve recently completely rearranged my altar, to have more of a focus on Ares as I try to overcome my fears in a certain area. The fact that it was a few days…

Quick Update

So, Life Be Crazy. Yes, I continue to live and breath. I had to move. The homesteading went bust. I’m planning on writing a much longer post about why I failed at this attempt, and what people who want to homestead themselves can learn from my failure. The gist is that we bit off more…